A lot has happened over the past few months. I have suffered academically, gained and lost so much. I shall elaborate what all actually elapsed in my life since November in later posts. But right now all I want to say is that I have suffered enough, lamented enough and lost a lot.
The setbacks have made me procrastinate my dream for long now. However, not anymore!
Today I shall begin. I shall seize this momentous occasion and plunge into the most exciting yet uncertain phase of my life- Civil Service Preparation.
It is no hidden fact that it’s been my childhood dream to be a civil servant, a member of the Indian Administrative Services. My passion had been somewhat lost in the maze of engineering submissions and deadlines but it took a single life changing moment to bring it all back and with renewed vigour!
A little boy on the road being scolded by his mother not for demanding a toy but for ‘not demanding one’. Not demanding a toy from strangers, for not begging well enough. This incident did not just bring to ears but also reignited the fire within me, the passion which lay dormant because of the fear of uncertainty and the seemingly insurmountable task i.e Civil Services Examination.
But I don’t want to look down upon my life 10 years later and think- this could have been different, I could have happier.
Then ofcourse, there is my lovely girlfriend. She isn’t just a girlfriend but a motivator- a constant support egging me forward, pushing me to break my own limitations! They say true and selfless companionship is hard to find, if so then I am lucky.
To be honest, I do not wish to rely on prayers and God for success. I bow before the Almighty everyday but not out of fear or greed but because I do not understand his nature or force. He is a mystery, I let him remain that way.
Effort is my only God and the list my only reward.
It starts today!